let go

I wrote about fear and surrendering in the winter of 2016, and once again it becomes relevant to me (and any of us trying to walk the path of Life).

on fear and surrendering

I’ve come to that small place again where fear is the one driving my choices. Where I’m trying to do everything on my own. Where I’m spinning in circles because I simply won’t let go of control. And everything is all about ME.

And all the while He is right here, waiting for me to take His hand. But in order to do that I have to let go of all the things I’m holding.

We’re not in control, in this life. We simply get to participate in it. The sooner we learn that and are able to let go of what we think is ours and embrace what He has for us, trusting that He is for us, the sooner we can live freely and joyfully.

I’m tired, because I’m carrying the weight of the world. It’s a burden He never intended for me to carry.

I recently got to see Frozen on Broadway in New York City, and the scene where Elsa sings “Let It Go” stuck with me; the whole sentiment behind it. I read that they ended up orienting the whole storyline around that song when the songwriters produced it, because the theme was so powerful. It resonates with so many.

Perhaps the need for control will be one the biggest battles we face for the rest of our lives- the need to control every aspect of our lives and have things go the way we see fit. And perhaps Jesus will keep begging us to lay down our own storylines and step into His. Because maybe His story is so much bigger and better than we ever dreamed was possible. Maybe His is the story we always wanted to be a part of, and we didn’t even know it.